I'm like tissue paper right now!

Strange blog title -- perhaps I should write the blog THEN give it a title? Nah, that wouldn't be any fun! lol. Seriously, though, allow me to explain the title. I know you've heard people talking about being stretched so thin... Well, I'm stretched so thin that one tiny drop of water (or, one more thing happens) and I'll start to rip apart. See? It wasn't so crazy after all! lol

I'm so sick of being taken advantage of. I say that I'll help you (not you, per se, just saying 'you' to avoid using person's name in here) and I will. I'll do whatever it takes to make sure you have what you need, that you are happy, that YOUR needs are met, above mine. Not above my children's - sorry, that just won't happen. But I sacrifice, and give, and sacrifice, and give... Oh, and did I mention sacrificing and giving?! You get the point. And in return, you want to question me, question where MY money goes? MFer it goes in YOUR damn pockets (or to YOUR bills and debt, or to get YOUR ish out the pawn shop, buy YOUR ish at the store)... If I buy myself something with MY money, FUCK OFF! It's MY money to begin with, and last time I checked, YOU don't pay any bills where I live. That's right, you don't pay my lights, my water, my gas, OR my rent. So back the fuck up, realize who you're snapping at, and step the fuck away.

I'm so tired of being used. I can't help but pay my bills. Ok so maybe I could help but let YOU live rent free, but I'm not the kind of person to let someone live on the streets. I'll keep ya ass in the house just to make sure you ok. But I'll be damn if you gonna sit up here and piss away $300 in ONE WEEK on what? hmm... NOTHING TO SHOW FOR IT! And then come back and question ME?! You got it twisted.Meantime, during that week, you used $140.00 of my money?!?!?!?!? Why!? Because you spent yours on... hmm... I could account for MAYBE $150 - I mean you did have to get diapers, formula, cigs, and... you said you had to buy food, but where you're at you didn't need to buy no damn food -- whatever. I could see pissing away $150, and that's being REALLY generous... Then there's the gas money you had to give ppl to get you to the yard (twice)... Ok... even if the gas IS $3something a gallon... there's another $60 or 70. Follow along with your calculator. That's NOT $300... The way I see it, you pissed away an EXTRA $80?? More than that, really, cuz I was being VERY generous on the diapers/wipes/cigs/food budget... Hell, more like $130. So, give ME the damn $130 every week, and I'll save it. For your next apartment for when I finally get tired of being used and kick your ass to the curb. Then I know you'll have the money you need to move out, instead of some new high-tech gadget you bought on Amazon.com or off craigslist that don't even work - much like you have not worked in the last year and a half. Aww -- did that hurt your feelings? Was I being mean?

Do you think I give two shits after the way you've been treating me lately? Not really. Sorry, but I don't. Grow up! You just had your 28th b-day, for goodness sake! Come on, dude... So, school didn't work out this semester... GET YA ASS A JOB! I'm tired of trying to make things work, trying to pay all the bills, trying to take care of 2 kids on my own -- well, that last one, I got that. Although that's about ALL you help me with. Give me a damn break. Start chipping on, or do us both a favor and move. We both know you bringing me down financially, which is taking its toll mentally. Give me some help, or give me some peace!