PS. God's Timing Really Sucks -- posted 9/4/10

I have been trying to change my life around and do right by God, lately, and at every turn and every change I make, there is Satan, trying to get me to go back. Well, guess what? I'm not going back, Satan, so you can get out of my life! Leave me alone! I have been taking a closer look at everything that's going on and see where it is that Satan has tried to bring me down, and this is what I've come up with:
I didn't really want to be in CR Friday night, just wasn't feeling like staying - Satan trying to pull me away from my strong support network, and get me to go home. I was victorious over him. I didn't stop and get a beer to drink that sounded so good on the way home.
Chris and I have been fighting over him getting his "freedom" and being allowed to do whatever he pleases. This still irritates me that as a mom, I don't get to go out and do the same things he does. I don't go play pool, I'm not even getting out to go play bingo or sing karaoke. So, victory is that I get to watch my kids grow up, and get to be the one they always turn to and trust! I need to keep this at the forefront of my mind.
My house is getting progressively more and more messy due to the fact that I now have TWO babies who are mobile. Well, I will turn this into a victory, too, and get it together. I need to leave FB alone for an hour or so after the kids go to bed so I can get the house straightened up, THEN get online. I'll work on that.
I've been praying to God more, and thanking Him for what he's given me, which is great, but it seems like when I do that, Satan finds a way to take what I've just said I was thankful away from me. Well, that's cool, too, because maybe I didn't really need it after all, or maybe it's being taken away to make room for something better, newer, or just plain different.

Now, I was feeling really happy, and was high on life, and getting so close to God, when a bipolar low set in. I haven't been able to find anyway to be victorious over THIS just yet, but when I do, I'll be sure and post an update. As for now, I'm going to continue to be thankful for the things that God has given me, and take solace in the fact that all good things will come... In God's time.
P.S. I think God's timing really sucks right now! lol